It's happening.

Rubbish

Monday, 30 November 2009 12:06 am

hello everybody! :D I'm still awake! hehe. Alaaah, let'see eh before 2am, I would be going to my lala land. hahaha. Anyways, I miss Ayuni, Ash, Hazwani, Nadia, Rafidah, Rasheeqa, Syafiqah & Tiara like a lot a lot! ): They're kecoh-ness ehh heboh! They never fail to put a smile on my face. :D Dah berbulan-bulan kami berteman ehhhhhhhhh. hmm.

I just have thoughts running in my mind. And, someone went online. I just think that he have . . . no couldn't be. Anyways, I just miss the moments. Oh wait, whatever. Never gonna happen. I shall kiss goodbye to all those stuffs. Besides, things I wish for would eventually go away. I will not put high hopes. :D I shall keep myself busy with family instead. I'll be here when you need me, remember that. Chalobeteh!

Oh wait, before I forgot.

Happy 17th Birthday, MuhammadAfiq aka Pete :D
Sorry if I have to take this picture. It is because I just lovieeee you hoodie! Hahahaha.
Alright, may happiness be with you and smile always (Oh wait, you have been smiling. :D) May god bless you. Good luck in life. takecare, dude!

Strength is all I need.
xoxo

I'm done.

Sunday, 29 November 2009 12:29 pm

HAPPY BELATED 15TH BIRTHDAY TO MY ABANG-ASH YANG TERCINTA :D hehehe. Loveyouuu. May happiness be with you & May god bless you. Imissyouu ):

AYUNIKU sudah pergi ke malaysia. And she will be away for a very long time. Aiyeeee! ): Hope you have a safe journey home!

Life have been i don't know. I do not know how to describe my life. It's just . . . i don't know. So, currently, my life is just 'i don't know'. Oh crap.

I've been watching indo movies. :D - the horror, the love, the friendship, the family movies. Their agriculture, their garden, their parks are so beautifuuuul! How I wish I could go there. One day, one day. hehe. They just have great fountains there. We can't find it anywhere around singapore. pfft.

Anyways, my dearest friend dedicate this song to me. Which made me tears. I do not know why. But the video is oh-so-sad.

I miss talking, chatting with my cousins! Urgh. They're busy with their work and I'm busy with my indo movies. hehehe. Padehal cellphone ade tak nak pakai ehh. Speaking of which, i do not know where I last put my phone. hmph.

Goodbye lovely people! :D

It will never change.

xoxo

Now, smile.

12:44 am

My head is spinning, I can't breathe. I do not know why I'm feeling this way. I no longer feel anger, I sometimes feel pain. I want to scream my lungs out. I want to get everything in my mind to go away. But I can't. Things I wish would eventually go away. Why do I face such tough times. Life is like a rose. With petals falling down leaving joy and sadness from our memories. Sometimes life is full of laughter and then, somehow it changes to disaster. I'm falling down already. I'm tired of all this. But, life just have to move on. Maybe it's a test from god. I'm terrified on handling it but i got to do it. Because I wanna pass this test. And I know, god will provide me with the strength. I will smile and keep on smiling. As that's how I just feel that I'm problem-free. hmm.

I can't turn back the clock. But I can wind it up again.

xoxo

Chances are fading

Tuesday, 24 November 2009 8:02 pm

I can't run away from my misery. I know I have been starting all the fights we had, til now it is still not complete. So now, here I am completing it. Listen, i've been moving on. I am sorry if i had to reject you again. Curse/scold me all you want. It will never change my mind. Make me your worst ex, i don't mind. Again, I'm apologizing for all my mistakes that I've made towards you. I heard that I've been hurting you a lot. I'm so sorry. Thank you for helping me in all of my problems. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for the advices you gave to me. Thank you for loving me. I got to make the first move to say goodbye to our relationship. I never mean to crush your world. I guess, it's the best for us to be apart. I know, you'll be thinking that I want to mingle with all of those guys outside. I'm sorry but I'm not like that kind of girl. Just think about it. It's like although you make me sound like I'm a slut. But, it's okay. Accuse me all you want, your mouth, your life. I'm going to stand strong, because you asked me to.

And it makes me wanna cry.

xoxo

Sharlene

Sunday, 22 November 2009 12:43 pm

hiiiii sweet. Okay, i'm sorry if i have to change the blogskin. I didn't mean to waste your time or what. But i screwed up the background uh. Salah code, agaknye ehh. hee. Sorryyyyy tauu. Yes, i love your blogskin. I would like to thank you for helping me. :D A lot, i knowww, you spend a lot of time on my blogskin. Look, i'll give you a treat in return alright? i promise. Once school reopens. Keep that in mind (: loveyou, sorry, thankyou!

No longer

11:24 am

helluhellihello :D I'm awake, i'm awake! HAHA. woots. Because, yesterday, no wait, today, i was on the phone with my sexyAYUNI until 3am. We watched like ghost movies, talked nonsense, laughed like one mad woman. And then something just have had to happen. I feel so bad but i guess i can't do anything about it. It's difficult to lose a friend like _______, but i have to. I really hope you do understand, bintang. & i'm sorry.

hehehehe. Check-out the date! 221109! weeee~ it means, EXACT one month to my birthday. hehe. And, happy 2nd month yang tak menjadi to my dearestEx. hehe. Ni kan, aku post pasal birthday, confirm nad ke ayuni comment tauuu! HAHAHA. Excited siaaaa. Tumbuh janggut sia tunggu birthday aku. hahaha. Alalalaaaaa~ siapesiape december babies, yok happyhappy! :D

Ummm, I do really need to talk to Haiqel. So, if you happened to have nothing to do, and then you view my blog, please do give me a call. It's kinda important? hmm.

Kk, i'll update more. Someone says," You have to eat a lot during breakfast." :D hahaha. Yesyes. hmm, bye someone. bye bintang. bye 'kembali pulang'. It seems like a lot of people eh? No-no. It equals to one. Anyways, HARDI thanks for help with ________. :D i owe you one. peace, dude.

I ain't ready for relationships, ya?

xoxo

Saturday, 21 November 2009 3:52 pm

Hello everybody. Sharlene/Anna here. Im editting diana's blog for her. And im currently quite stuck. Im just posting to test out the font and see how it looks like. Anyway, diana i hope you like your new skin! Im not sure if it's "your type" but i tried my best though. Hehe. And you can change the background if you want to. I don't know what type of background to put for you. I still hope your satisfied with it ayeeee. I took quite a long time trying to find a sutiable layout for you tau! Hahaha. And there you are, AT MADRASAH while im here stressing my brains out. HAHAHAH. Okay lah. If your not okay with the layout, just tell okay. Byebye!

UNTITLED.

Friday, 20 November 2009 10:43 pm

Anyone, can anyone just shoot me in the heart? Oh wait, i gotta be strong because you told me too. Why be sad, when the other party is having fun? AHH! cannot cannot. I do not want to suffer slowly. It just hurts too much. Does 2012 will really come true? If it will, I'll be waiting for it. Ya Allah, please give me strength in handling problems like this. You're the only one that could help me. Please do. Amin.

i'm wishing on a star

xoxo

Blind-folded.

Saturday, 14 November 2009 9:47 pm

The feeling is just not right. AHHHHH! I feel like killing myself! But I do not know for what reason. But, urgh! KILL ME, ANYONE?

now which way do I go?
xoxo

It ends tonight.

Friday, 13 November 2009 11:23 am

You know who you are. Oh yes, I dedicate this song to you. Listen and read the lyrics properly. Eventually, you'll overcome it. :D

Love me, love me not.
xoxo

Screams.

Thursday, 12 November 2009 10:17 am

AHHHH! I can't forget about it. Hais hais hais. Ohh, how am I suppose to forget. Yes, i know people make mistakes. And I'm one of them, too! Well, now, it's not just repeating but it's just getting worse. Situation changes uh? Oh please babe, i know, it's my fault too. Sorry, a zillion. Guess what? Instead of tearing, I'm cursing. I'm just disappointed. Alright then, I'm gonna be strong and just go with the flow. As always. Allah knows how I'm feeling right now. What actually hurts the most is to hear you say all those stuff and ends up you said you're lying all about it. Now, thank Allah I'm closing one eye. I don't bother about this anymore. I guess, i'm better off not thinking about it. And I hope, OH PLEASE, do not just spoil my moments with my dearly friends. Karma. Breaking down in the bathroom, crying my heart out. Feeling oh-damn-disappointed in you is the only thing I afford to do. I guess, the bathroom is the only place where I could shut up and cry. & to let the water run down my face. But, I choose to change the situation. I got tired of cryinng. I got tired of being disappointed. I got tired of thinking about all this idiot stuff. Now, I'm just gonna stop looking back. Oh brother, I won't be bothered anymore. Pfft. The moments shared are meant to be kept, but may I know how long?

Oh, help me, anyone, please!

“How can we make this last forever? When forever does not even exist.”

- i found it on Diy's blog. hee. :D

I'm so agreeing to it. And thankyou sharlene for the advices. I guess that is it As for now, I'm not gonna spoil my mood just because of you and your words. I'm gonna be strong, real strong. Or not, i'll act as if i am. When the hell am I gonna stop posting about all this stuff. hmm.

I wanna keep, but . . .
xoxo.

Happy Birthday

Wednesday, 11 November 2009 11:57 pm

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAZZZZZZZLYYYYYYY :D
heheh, weeee~ you're finally 17 years old. aku pey lagi lame siol. hmph. heard that you had a great birthday bash! hehe. bagusbagusbagus! :D may Allah bless you alright? last long with your girlfriend, my bestfriend, my girlfriend, my sexy bitch, syafiqah. Hahahaha, dengar2 cam banyak gitu orang kau date, padehal setia pade satu sahaje :D hehe. kk, dude. sorry lambat, tapi aku dah wish on fb dulu tauu. Bey yang gambar kat atas tuu, yang paling cool uh gitu. hahahah, gerek doh! chalobeteh! Tapi ni kau land betul2 ke takk nii? hehehe.

nazly dah 17, yay yay!
xoxo

Kill me now

12:03 am

mardhiah said, " . . . just be happy aites . . ." Oh that sweet girl, just keep me smiling. hehe.terimakasih banyakbanyak uh babe! Finally, we got to keep in touch, again! weeee~ hehe. meet up lah pulak ehehehhhhh? &, sometimes things happened for a reason. Because we ought to learn from what had happened to us. But I've been listening to you. I don't get you at times. Of why you asked me not to do this and that, kinda unreasonable. But as i said, there must be a reason for every action you made. Right? Hmm. i just don't bother asking you. oh for? We never use to talk things out face-to-face. Oh why? I wonder, wait there must be a reason. So, I'll patiencely wait for the reason to pop out. No no, not sarcastic. Not even a bit. I'm just stating my thoughts here. You said stuffs that hurt me, deep inside. Thankyou, a lot. Yayat said, "There must be a reason." Oh, don't go on accusing me for telling him because if you can go tell your dearly friends about our problems, why not me? Opps. He is my cousin, dear. So think about it. I think I'm better off without you for a few days. Sentosa, thursday? I'll be there. Kept my promise to my dearestASH, i will meet her. :D & give her my biggest huggg! weee~ oh please, i do not wanna list down what you said to me. Now look, me? tense? Say all you want. Oh yes, you're a joke. Why? Sometimes, i trust you too much. Oh wait, everytime. hehs. because I-L-O-V-E-Y-O-U. But, the words you said to me, make me break down and kiss goodbye to my love towards. Oh how hurt, am I? And you can go telling me that you were . . . I do not want to state it here. You said, "get lost,", is that still a lie? Stop lying, for once bie. It hurts. A lot. So now, I'm getting lost. :D No, i do not want your sorry. i said right? you're always forgiven. I know, i've done mistakes towards. Sorry. Believe it or not, this r/s there's not even a bit of trust. Alright, i'm getting lost, now.

Applause to my beautifulMARDHIAH&cousins yang ku sayangi for giving me confidence and keeping that smile on my face. I may be stubborn at times, but i do relfect back on your advices, babe&dudes! :D

I rather you stab me than you saying all those stuff. I'm serious.
xoxo

Priceless

Tuesday, 10 November 2009 8:14 pm

The picture above ehh. I need people to mengaku uh. Is it referring to my group or what? I ain't tryna big fuck here uh. But, look, if someone were to write this on that double-deck bus, and you were to find out, you will be super duper mad, kankankan? Confirm punye. Lagi marah lagi dari aku sekarang. Oh wait, if this TKG isn't referring to my group, okay aku tak pasal. But, please, I know it's so referring to my group, because it's written on the bus 17! :D I took it on 101109, 09:43am. I'm not tryna act big here. But I'm just standing up for my clique. You can whatever you want, too bad, that won't bring me down. Because it's just words. Not afraid, never will. :D Do feel free to tag on tagboard. I just need to know, who wrote. Fair enough? And I know, you guys are not as penakut as I am, used to be. I'm referring to everyone out there who's reading my blog. I'm sorry if I offended anyone. Didn't mean to, swear.

nameless creatures
xoxo

Just go.

Monday, 9 November 2009 12:32 am

heyyyyyyyyy :) So, while waiting for the movie to load, I shall do something beneficial aye? hehe. I thought that I'm gonna just rot at home and do nothing. But then, there was a last minute plan made by mama - johore. hahaha. I had no choice but to give up my nap and go change because mama said, "Kau selalu siap lambat." hehehe. lek uh, cakap pompan pe.

Faizal didn't tag along. He played soccer, standard jugak. Jejak johore at about 7.20pm. Okaylahhh, nothing much to say about johore. Typical incidents - traffic jam, inconvinience drivers, yadayada. OH! Before that, we went sengkang for god knows why. And then there's these group of citizens flying kites. Oh, how nice. [T][K][G] nak g main layanglayang nak nak nak? hehehehehe! So, I said, "Ehh active pe orang nii. Banyak eh orang main kite." Then KPOdanish said, "Ramai lah orang. Bukan banyak." Dengan die pey care bebual, fahamfaham uh. Then mama said, "Adik kau lagi tahu bebual melayu betul2." YELAAAAAHHHH. standard jugak, cume kawankawan je faham melayu akuu.

And the picture above. hehehe. nothing much uh. It's just that danish is just so adorable, cute, sweet, funny although I know he is veryyyyy the annoying! hmph. lyyyyyy.

Because my position have changed.
xoxo

Chances.

Sunday, 1 November 2009 12:59 pm

heyyyyyyyy :) Facebook = I don't know what to do with it. Sigh. Well, I'm bored. So that answers of why the hell I'm blogging when I got nothing to update. How I wish I have tons of homeworks to keep me busy. HAHAHAHA. I bet all of you disagree with me kankankan? Then, what am I suppose to do? Confirm plus chop this month's electricity bill is gonna make mama scream her lungs out. HAHAHA. Because I have been switching my laptop and tv on. Well, usually uh kan, at night uh, from 8pm to morning. And I'll switch it off when I feel like to. :) Mama, bear with it. In few years time, Me and faizal are paying the bills. Cam brudder, ready pe? hehe.

Oh, he got a job at subcourt. Salary; $1000+. For a part-time job, isn't that a lot!? Faizal, the dummy dumb dumb, doesn't wants it as it's too far, no friends?, not an easy job? Stupiiiiiiiid! Sigh, if I'm like 16 now, I do want that jobbb! ): But due to my late birthday;december, might else well, I wait for the freaking next year right? Aiyer. Speaking of which, mama got me a job. Being a 'maid' at home. Cleaning the whole house until the end of the year, then I'll get my IPod. Hahahaha, SET MAMA SET! :D Easy job.

BOYS&GIRLS, FINALLY IT'S NOVEMBERRRRRRRR! :) double yay! hehs. The last time I checked, there's super a lot of birthdays to cover up this month. Starting with Rasheeqa&Aunty's birthday on the 5th, Danish's birthday on the 6th, Aufa's birthday on the 7th/8th (opps), Nazly's birthday on the 11th, TaufiqHidayat's birthday on the 16th, Ajan's birthday on the 26th ( I think uh, that's what nad says. Haha! ) & Ash's birthday on the 28th. Oh not to forget, the annis'. hehehe! Well, there's quite a number of birthdays' huh. BIGBIGBIGGG CELEBRATION NAKNAK? weeeeee~ hee.

Okay, I'll post more later. :) later girls/guys. :D

Some truth are better left unsaid.
xoxo